My forever love

after so many years,
after so many months has passed
when the pain has gone
i remember you still
no longer angry, no longer desperate, but still with fondness
 
i remember your smile,
i remember how you walk
i remember how you kiss my hair
i know that time will never come again
but now, i've learned to let go of the pain and treasure the memories

maybe its true, that when you have loved someone,
that someone will always occupy a special place in your heart.
wherever you are, whoever you're with
there will always be a little pinch in my heart
but know that you will always be loved
always will be in my heart,
you and i, will always be underneath the same big sky
my forever love...

Starting over Sunflower =)

after i was browsing through the internet 

i remembered i had a blog

had a hard time remembering it 

don't even know what address it is 

i even had to ask friends

i had a totally different idea in my head

as to what i wanted to write about

but after reading all the things i wrote last year

it struck a cord in my heart

that i had to write something about it even for one last time.  

that should be the last thing i will write about

i hope

and from now on i will just be happy 

living under God's grace

after all, the blog is called 

Butterflies and sunflower dreams

those are the most beautiful things i find in this world

Butterflies so beautiful, joyously flying but seemingly bouncing and yet graceful

a sunflower, ahhh its beautiful yellow color, so bright and happy

and incidentally

as i was trying to find my own blog,

i found an article that talks about the sunflower,

it says that it faces to where the sun hits it most

and the writer likened it to her faith

we should all face to where we see God most

and from now on, my forever symbol will be

a sunflower, not just because its beautiful 

but because from now on,

i will make sure, i face God and see God and hear him

in my life

My faith shall face the one whom i can depend and lean on.

Thank you Lord for my life

i dedicate it to you, use it for your Glory

May every step i take be guided by you

May every move i make glorify you

Starting over Sunflower =)

after i was browsing through the internet 

i remembered i had a blog

had a hard time remembering it 

don't even know what address it is 

i even had to ask friends

i had a totally different idea in my head

as to what i wanted to write about

but after reading all the things i wrote last year

it struck a cord in my heart

that i had to write something about it even for one last time.  

that should be the last thing i will write about

i hope

and from now on i will just be happy 

living under God's grace

after all, the blog is called 

Butterflies and sunflower dreams

those are the most beautiful things i find in this world

Butterflies so beautiful, joyously flying but seemingly bouncing and yet graceful

a sunflower, ahhh its beautiful yellow color, so bright and happy

and incidentally

as i was trying to find my own blog,

i found an article that talks about the sunflower,

it says that it faces to where the sun hits it most

and the writer likened it to her faith

we should all face to where we see God most

and from now on, my forever symbol will be

a sunflower, not just because its beautiful 

but because from now on,

i will make sure, i face God and see God and hear him

in my life

My faith shall face the one whom i can depend and lean on.

Thank you Lord for my life

i dedicate it to you, use it for your Glory

May every step i take be guided by you

May every move i make glorify you

The fairy tale has ended

The fairy tale has ended
the long due confusion is finally over
and what's left are fragments of memories
fragments of feelings of how a love once was
a love that use to turn my world upside down
a love i use to fight so hard for
now where has it gone?

as i go through life everyday,
i still have fragments of our routines
still have fragments of clockwork of memories
checking my phone, picking up my phone
realizing i have no one to call anymore
finally being able to tell the world and hear myself say
it is over
with a little pinch in my heart
a touch of loneliness for something that ended
but at least this time,
my world did not crash and crumble
i'm fine and standing

whether  i made the right or wrong decision
i do not know
all i know is that now i have peace
peace in my life and peace in my heart
though there is and will probably always will be
a touch of sadness
for a fairy tale that once was

Very close!!!

here's to me wishing you have a life
here's to me trying my best to be kind and nice
but actually wanting to scream for you to get a life
for you to be able to look beyond yourself and your troubles
and actually care for others, other than yourself

here's to me almost wanting to scream at you
almost wanting to end everything with you
here's to me trying trying my hardest to remember
why i even loved you
how i fought for you
how i spent all i can
mind and soul to have you'
here's to me trying to remember
the reason i fought for you against all odd
here's to me trying to remember
how i almost ruined my future because of you

here's to me beginning to hate your lifeless voice
the never ending complains how your life is so hard
and how i was never good enough for you
here's to me getting tired of hearing all your damn complains
all your damn demands before i will be fit enough to marry you

and now here's to me now getting very very close
to telling you to get out of my life
and free myself from the selfish you
and throw away all the sacrifices i made
cause i realized i have always been the only one
the only one who was made to change
the only one who never measures up
the only one who has to sacrifice
the only one who is always at fault
that even when you are at fault
and was found to be with adulterous
i was still the one who was suppose to understand
and not hurt you!!!
here's to me very very close to forgetting and loathing you!!!

My Betraying Heart

isnt it sad when the one who use to make your heart beat
no longer does
when the heart has found someone else
whose warmth it chooses to give

i've always thought love will forever last
will forever endure
but now, how can i trust,
when its my very heart
that has betrayed its very thing it believes in

Prince of Mind and Heart

why is my heart stronger than my brain
why is the the mind overpowered by the heart
why do we wish for happy endings
for fairy tales
and why do we always ask why
when we can just live recklessly like the others
and yet why isn't reckless living be true for me
cause i know i want more
i want to be the princess with a prince
i want a prince worthy of my love
and a prince who will take care of my heart
and give my mind some peace