Very close!!!

here's to me wishing you have a life
here's to me trying my best to be kind and nice
but actually wanting to scream for you to get a life
for you to be able to look beyond yourself and your troubles
and actually care for others, other than yourself

here's to me almost wanting to scream at you
almost wanting to end everything with you
here's to me trying trying my hardest to remember
why i even loved you
how i fought for you
how i spent all i can
mind and soul to have you'
here's to me trying to remember
the reason i fought for you against all odd
here's to me trying to remember
how i almost ruined my future because of you

here's to me beginning to hate your lifeless voice
the never ending complains how your life is so hard
and how i was never good enough for you
here's to me getting tired of hearing all your damn complains
all your damn demands before i will be fit enough to marry you

and now here's to me now getting very very close
to telling you to get out of my life
and free myself from the selfish you
and throw away all the sacrifices i made
cause i realized i have always been the only one
the only one who was made to change
the only one who never measures up
the only one who has to sacrifice
the only one who is always at fault
that even when you are at fault
and was found to be with adulterous
i was still the one who was suppose to understand
and not hurt you!!!
here's to me very very close to forgetting and loathing you!!!